Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Over the past year I have come across people that have influenced my life dramatically. They are your typical people who mix in easily with a crowd. They are coaches, they are mentors and they are parents of small children. When you come across them you automatically trust them. They are nice. They help you when you need support and they are fun to be around. You never think that they would belong to a new more modern definition of “evil” until you fall victim to their plan. A person who has become evil and passive may show signs in a different manner. They do not physically harm you but they will affect you in a passive aggressive manner.
After completing some deep work over the past year in recognizing my own anxieties and weaknesses I discovered and researched some other illnesses that were affecting my life including people who are unhealthy and were affecting my life in a negative manner. I researched and read many books on what I was up against and found out some information so I could guard myself from them to keep me safe. Overall I learned who they were and how to protect myself from their illness.
A person suffering from this type of disease will create a feeling of insecurity in others so they may disguise their own insecurities. They make and create chaotic situations where ever they can and they use the victimization tool as their responses instead of recognizing their own weaknesses. Some other signs and situations are being chronically late or forgetting things, sulking, procrastination and obstructionism. They complete all of these tasks in a non-confrontational manner that would require a response. These types of people are usually within the workplace but they also can become visible in social settings as well.
As I found myself in a deep well of negative relationships I realized my own weaknesses. Once I understood their behavior I was able to make a healthy detachment from them and regain my sense of being and confidence. How wonderful it is to have that back!
Saturday, July 16, 2011
So Fathers Day weekend came around and low and behold Pete was dateless for a much needed golf outing. As any good wife would do I boastfully volunteered to play golf along side him. Now people who really know me understand that sports is not really my cup of tea. I have never much enjoyed them or found a sport that I stayed with or enjoyed very much. Soon the morning came and Pete and I were getting dressed. As I was trying to find the perfect cute golf outfit Pete informed me that I had to wear a collared shirt! WHAT!?! I don't think I even own a collared shirt! He explained to me that golf is a very respectable sport and that we must look presentable and clean while we play. HA! This probably wont work for me I thought. I did find one collared shirt that worked but thought to myself that if I enjoy this sport I am going to have to do some clothes shopping. Golfing turned out to be a fun day with the hubby! We flirted, played, laughed and had a great time. I actually ended up burning a lot of calories too! I enjoyed my experience so much that I can't wait to go again! Yeah for me and finding a sport that I can enjoy!
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Things have just recently changed for the better. I still live the same crazy life of cleaner, caretaker, grocery shopper, bill payer, wife and mother but I have also fit in what I call, "Mommy Time." This "Mommy Time" consists of any time away from the house for a minimum of 1 hour, away from family obligations and fulfilling no body's expectations but my own. It's perfect. My goal for "Mommy Time" is 3 days a week. The only way I have allowed myself to fit this in is having such a supportive husband. If that was not the case..."Mommy Time" would be non-existent.
"Mommy Time" can be a range of a variety of activities including working out, reading at Barnes and Noble, GNO (Girls Night Out), shopping, pedi's, and writing. The list can go on....as most of your mothers know.
The best thing about fitting in my "Mommy Time" is there is absolutely no guilt. It is like it has been erased from my mind. I have come to an understanding that in order for my family to function in a happy "state" I need to have some kind of down time. Just fitting this time in has made our little family even more healthier than it was before. It is really amazing how fitting in three hours a week for myself can change your whole family's dynamic and well being. It has actually been mandatory in my recovery.
I love coming home from work everyday now, I have the energy for my children, my husband and myself!
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Today, I am still working hard on this sole searching adventure but I feel I am getting better and better everyday. Things are falling into place so perfectly. I still have low days of course but I know how to handle them better. Above all I have distinguished the guilt and resentment that once harbored me and I am now moving on with my life. I wish my family and friends the same kind of peace that I am sitting with today. I am enjoying life, depending on God for everything and have fallen in love with Pete in a way I thought was never possible. I will leave you with this quote which I find so true. "What happens to a man is less significant than what happens within him." Louis L. Mann
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Olivia and her teacher Mrs. Candalaria
Waiting patiently....or impatiently???
And as for Emma, she is still growing fast and keeping Mommy and Daddy very busy. She is into everything and she is a very independent little girl. AKA....Our challenge! Enjoy the Fall Season and we will see you soon!
Friday, July 10, 2009
May God Bless America!
In Florence, AZ, summer is quickly coming to a halt. Mommy has to go back to school next week and all of the Gammill birthdays are over, as well as the vacations. :( We had a great summer break and although Mommy almost lost her mind a few times with her challenging 2 year old daughter Emma....she has survived and is ready for Susie to come back. :) The summer started off with the school trip to DC, which was a blast. One week later the whole family rented a mini van and went out to Carlsbad, CA to stay in a condo on the beach. What a great time we had. We visited Legoland, Disneyland and of course the beach. It was so relaxing and needed. Upon our return we quickly had to get ready for the celebration of the girls birthday parties. As most of you know, Olivia and Emma are born a few weeks apart...so we did a combined party for both of them at the Anthem Water Park. It was a blast and well needed because of the high temperatures outside. As always we end the summer with Independance Day. Mommy's favorite holiday. Hope everyone is enjoying their summer but for Mommy the summer is over and now, it is back to work!
A view from the FDR Monument
We also visited the largest mission in California...I love this picture of Olivia trying to hold Jesus and Mary's hand. Priceless.
Emma making sandcastles and eating the sand as well. :( Olivia got to dance in the parade at Disneyland!
Our view from the patio of our beach condo...perfect!